Random-ness

So many thoughts, so weak to write them down.

Today has been 1 year for our family. One year since we loaded up a big trailer in our driveway in RH and pulled it 2 hours south-west into Aiken. This is a day filled with many, many emotions. We have come a long way in 1 year, with many, many ups and downs, but knowing that we are constantly seeking God's Will for our family, keeps me going on.

I registered our 14-year-old for high school today. I am too young to have a high schooler and especially one that is 6'4". He is such a great kid with a really big heart. I just hope God has big plans for him in the future.

Our little, big guy, our 10 year-old, is playing football for a near-by town. It is a little scary seeing him out there, but I'm not too worried about him getting hurt...I'm pretty sure he will be the biggest one on any team they face. I keep telling him that God gave him these abilities to play sports and he needs to give Him the credit.

Our princess, 7 year-old daughter is going to be causing us many sleepless nights. She is such a girly-girl with a tomboy flare. However, she can't keep away from the boys.....uh-oh!!!

Our 4 year-old baby will be starting 5-day 4K this year. I am elated and saddened all at the same time. I can't believe he is already school age, but I am ready for some mommy time.

So, that leaves me feeling very confused. I am really looking forward to having a couple hours to myself everyday, but I'm feeling very guilty for feeling that way. Am I sad that my oldest baby is going to high school? Sure, but I don't feel I have the same sadness that others feel. It is weird how I feel so numb going through life...

I am officially looking for a direction in my life. I have felt pulled in many different ways, but it is time for me to find something I am good at and enjoy. I'm not necessarily talking about a job, but some hobby or something.

It has been an interesting year. I am ready to tackle all that God has planned for our family in the upcoming year.